Birth Day, Ver. 35

So I am now in a different demographic. I am kind of on the fence if it bothers me or not.

This morning Sarah stopped by and purchased a necklace. For lunch Dan and I went to Baba which tasted even better than usual because I haven't been in a few weeks...I got the sashimi lunch plate and we split a fancy roll. Dan had noodles and veggies. Oh, and for an extra special treat, I had sake. At lunchtime. A big one. Yummmm! The Dan had to go and say out loud that it was my birthday and Mike and Wilson made a dessert for me and sang Happy Birthday, which breaks our relationship rule #1. That's rule NUMBER ONE, the first rule we made as a couple...if we have birthday dinner out, no singing servers carrying a dessert with flaming candles. #2 was no minivan...so I guess we'll have to see if that one gets broken, but it's pretty much downhill from here at any rate.
Anyway the dessert was 2 tempura fried Mochi balls, my favorite - green tea flavored. And they were fried...ugh - heaven.

I then went to Serendipity in Hudson to drop off some pincushions, 2 scarves and some felted beads. That was fun - the owner Lori is super nice and she has inspiring and colorful stuff in her shop for sale. Plus it was a nice 25 min ride out there and I needed some space to think. AND I brought home a check...nice.

At home I learned I had sold a pincushion on Etsy...I'll take what I can get as it is the DRY season of Winter/Spring and I'm lucky I have any income at all!

Some stuff came to a head at home today and I feel a huge relief, if not more anxiety for being an assertively proactive person. I think a lot of my problems stem from me needing everything compartmentalized into nice, tidy packages, and I mean figuratively and emotionally. Pretty much, if you have a problem, bring it to me...I will analyse it, come up with 10 possible solutions and help implementing them. But I most definately need movement of some kind...I hate stagnancy , indifference, apathy...if you come to that point then why bother at all...

I guess I can say I am learning to be more adaptable too, or at least trying in some ways. Compromise. Funny.

I really don't like when people post song lyrics in their blog but I am so intrigued by a simple little song I mentioned recently: Save Me by Aimee Mann, I am goind to do the unthinkable: I will join the ranks of the freaks and type the lyrics:

You look like a perfect fit. A girl in need of a tourniquet. But can you save me. C'mon and save me. If you could save me from the ranks of the freaks who suspect they could never love anyone. I can tell you know what it's like. The long farewell of the hunger strike. But can you save me.
You struck me dumb like radium. Like Peter Pan or Superman you will come to save me.
If you could save me from the ranks of the freaks who suspect they could never love anyone except the freaks who suspect they could never love anyone.

I am really into it right now. I'm sure in a few days it will pass. As everything ususally does.